Friday, February 18, 2011

Reality of the World

I’ve been innocent since my childhood. I remember my parents, especially my mother, used to share some of my childhood memories in which she used to mention how the colony children used to fool me. They used to use me in every possible ways and at the end of day I was left alone.
I remember few things too. I remember there was one time during my school days when I was not having a single friend. I used to talk to the fellow class mates in school but never allowed them to be as close as friend. The reason I give is that I want to be choose a good friend and not some Tom Dick or Harry. But, I think I was scared of getting fooled again. May be I was tired of being fooled again and again. Whatever the reason may be but the thing was clear that I lived the life of loneliness for quite some years. Then I got a friend with whom I used to chat a lot and who used to call home too. That brought a relief to my parents, especially my mother, as I was finally getting calls. But I suppose that didn’t last for more years. I don’t know the reason; neither do I want to know. I was again left alone in my world.
During my pre-college days, I mixed up with my classmates as they used to come at my home for tuitions. This again allowed me to mix up with them. This time, it wasn’t a single person I was dealing with rather it was a group. A group where I was the prey and they were hunters, not all for sure as exceptions do exists. There I was used to the fullest and in the language of a commerce student, the maximum utilization was done. I, like any other time, was unaware till the utilization was complete. After everything was done, I understood the whole scene as I was started being ignored and people started talking about bad about me. Then I got that when the college is over, my use is complete so now they can speak all bad about me, openly and loudly.
Then the same repeated during my college days. Now, when I think about those incidences with a cool mind, the result which I get is, after being used by so many times, people still want to use me. Then I must be having something good that is not finishing so soon that they are attracted towards me. But this is what we call being optimistic approach to any situation. Well, I don’t want to optimistic anymore and now want to try my hand in being pessimistic. Now, when I see the whole situation, I find another result, which I think and believe is the fact. Till these years, I was being a good guy. A good person who believed in helping the friends and speaking mind in a polite way. The guy who used never cheated or used any person as this was against the rules of being good. Who used to think that there is no harm in helping others and used to be away from all sorts of politics. But ultimately was the victim all kinds of politics. Who thought that inner beauty is far more important than the outer good looks? Now, I find all my goody-goody things as crap. This all, I suppose, were used to be in this earth millions years ago and in today’s world they are good as money makers by some baba or to impress some old people. I have faced the bitter reality of world where when I expressed my emotions which are true and pure; people turned their head and left me alone. Where I helped as friend and they used me just as a product. Where I have friends in my Facebook account but no one has time to comment or chat with me; but at the same time will comment on others with full enthusiasm. I would really like to thank this modern techno-social gathering where the real face of people is visible; the reality of the world is speaking loud.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010


It was a normal day like any other day, for you all but not for me. My eyes opened with the ringing alarm in my cell. I opened my one fourth eyes and switched it off and went to sleep again. Then finally my one fourth eyes opened half at 10 am. I was in bed and still half sleepy when I realized that my left head at the back of my ear was paining like hell.
I never had such pain before. It was paining since few days but that was minimal. Still sleeping, my mind starts working and the first thought that came there was ‘Have I developed Brain Tumour?’ I’ve seen in the movies, they show that whoever has a brain tumour gets a pathetic pain in head. As this thought passed through my nerves, my body stretched and my eyes were wide open. I woke up, rather got up like I have just been given a shock, and opened my laptop. I didn’t bother to wash my face. Who will care to wash when this kind of thought will come in your mind?
My mind was still working. I Google my query and came across a link which talked about the symptoms. I clicked it thinking that what to do it I really have a tumour and how big will it be? Still in my dream world, I read the symptoms.
“These are the most common symptoms of brain tumours:
1. Headaches (usually worse in the morning) : I had one, in fact having one right now. CONFIRMED.
2. Nausea or vomiting: Not yet happened but might happen in further stages. DOUBTFUL.
3. Changes in speech, vision, or hearing: Yeah, somehow. I hear something else. And sometimes face difficult to read messages when I’m sleeping. I read ‘How’ into ‘Where’. CONFIRMED.
4. Problems balancing or walking: Yeah. It happens. I face difficulty to walk when I’m wearing a high heel Woodland trekking shoe and a heavy bag with laptop, camera and books. Anyone can walk properly with those heavy bag and high heel. CONFIRMED.
5. Changes in mood, personality, or ability to concentrate: Surely. I feel disturbed when I’m not done with my article or facing problem in finding an appropriate topic. No one would shout or get disturb with that little obstacle when you’ve loads of thing to do and your boss is calling every second and asking for article. CONFRIEMED.
6. Problems with memory: Few days back I forgot the name of my sister’s friend whose contact is been saved in my cell and we meet every week. Sometimes, I even forget the day. It doesn’t matter if sometimes it happens. What matter is this all are happening with me right now. CONFIRMED.
7. Muscle jerking or twitching (seizures or convulsions): It’s happening since few days. I know I’m wearing that Woodland shoe very often and go for assignment walking long miles. No one would find that difficulty when you are running with that shoe every day. CONFIRMED.
8. Numbness or tingling in the arms or legs: It happened when I sit one position for long hour without noticing that I’m little healthy, actually fatty, and when you sit in the same position folding legs, the blood finds difficult to circulate in your body and you get that feeling. At this moment, it was correct in my context. CONFIRMED.

OMG (Oh! My God), 1,2,3,4…..8. Seven out of eight symptoms fits me. After I analysed my situation, I switched off my laptop. I again fell in bed. I was imagining about what doctor would say when I’ll visit him.
“Ryan, I’ve news for you, a BAD news to give you. I’m afraid you have developed Brain Tumour. It has grown a little and that’s why you are facing those headaches. We can operate you but in that we have a risk. Either you’ll lose all your memory or would go to coma as it’s located near to the main part of your brain which controls all memory”.
“If I chose not to get operated then who much time does I’m left with?”
“I’m afraid it’s only 6 months.”
I’ll come out and would call my friend, Vishal.
“Those doctors are good for nothing. We’ve developed such nice equipment but they are not able to do anything with those”.
“What happened, Ryan? Why are you so angry? And what made you visit a Doc.?”
“I was having headache so I visited him. After doing all the test he’s saying that I’ve developed Brain Tumour and if I get operated either I’ll lose memory or would go into coma. They are good for nothing. I’ve only 6 months in my hand to live”. With tears in my eyes and angriness in voice, I’ll talk to him.
“But how could it happen? You won’t die soon. Let’s meet up and see some other doc.”
“Who else can be good? I’m coming out from Aditya Birla Hospital. They are equipped with latest technology. Any ways, I’m going for movie, to freshen up and then would sit down to make a list of what I’ve to do in these 6 months”.
“But which movie you are going?”
“I’m going for AanjanaAanjani. Hope to get some idea on what all I’ve to do before I die”.
Then, suddenly, I thought of messaging Vishal about my open eye dream and the problem. As I explained him the whole thing, instead of sympathising he was laughing. How rude? It’s so bad of him. He said that whatever I thought was making no sense. It was all non-sense. He was certainly not my good friend. I shouted at him but then he cooled me up and explained that just because I take lots of tension I might be suffering from the headache. Or maybe it was because I carry that heavy bag which might have resulted in some stretch of my nerve which was connecting till there. Then my attention went to my shoulder. My left shoulder was paining as there was some stretch in a nerve or couple, as it seems, which made my shoulder pain. After that, I all my symptoms CRASHED.
My open eye dream might have fallen but that made me a little philosophical, a little only. It gave me a thought what if one morning I’ll develop something like this which is not curable. Why get something, what I die in an accident while crossing the road? Life is really uncertain and you don’t know what will happen the next very second. But we live our every moment criticizing, curing, and doing what not to others. This we call life? The moment I thought that I’ll be having only 6 months to live, my mind start working in all those things which I would like to do. That very moment, I didn’t thought of doing something wrong to those who did wrong with me. Neither had I thought of harming anyone in any sense. My concentration was only on the ‘Things to do before I die’. And that list didn’t include anything like that. So, why we don’t do all those ‘goody goody’ things when we are alive? Why we wait for the last time to come so that we can pen down the list of ‘things to do’? Can’t we live with all those positive vibes? I don’t know about you all, but I still have that 6 month to live and would try to achieve all that what I’ve noted down in that list. Who knows what will happen next.

Friday, July 16, 2010

Tapri-The adda of students

Whenever one talks about the college days, our mind recollects those classes, those friends, those lectures and how professor scolds on bunking those lectures. One important part which every one miss is the Tapri.
Tapri is a place where we sit together, discuss about on the reason to bunk the lecture and whose lecture needs to be bunked. A place where one makes plan for the movies and talk about the on-going affairs of class. Where one with the smoke of every cigarette forgets the tension and assignments that need to be done. Where one sits for the whole day completing the assignments on an eleventh hour. This is place which is not as big as Café Coffee Day or any other big names to mention but a place where one gets the finest of experience and the best tea or coffee at a reasonable price.
Unlike any other college, Indira College also does have a Tapri which fulfils the all emotional support that a student would need in his college days. Located next to the Indira School of Communication building on the way to Indira National School, this is a small open area which is owned by Arun. It been opened since 1998. Since then many students from all over the campuses of Indira Institute come here for the refreshments. As you enter the small place, first thing you will notice is the chairs and table arranged by the side of the foyer. The place is been covered by the shed. On the right hand side you will see a small table where Arun takes the cash. There itself one would find all kind of cigarettes available. This place might be seen a very congested area, but as you enter little inside, you enter to the open hall with natural wind blowing.
One cross the kitchen and then enters the open area. As you cross the kitchen, you can smell the Vada Pav, Bhajji, which is been prepared. That brings water to your mouth and you are left with no option to just order. After crossing the kitchen, one reaches the open hall. There are three sitting arrangement made. One next to the kitchen, which is again under the shed, the next two is in an open area in opposite directions. During evening hours, you can see students sitting in large groups smoking and enjoying the Vada Pav or Bhajji. A student, Rishkesh, who is doing Masters in Mass Communication from Indira, says, “I come here for time pass, basically to smoke. We come in groups, have tea and sit chatting. It is the attachment towards this Tapri which brings us here”. The place is no less than a home and can be a perfect place to enjoy the nature. Sushant Singh, another student from same batch, says, “When I come in evening, the cold winds make the environment romantic. I can see the setting Sun and the cold winds blowing makes me romantic. I used to sit here having a hot glass of tea and enjoys the evening time”.
This place, with an open area makes it no less than a five star hotel or a well managed place. The area is open. It is been managed by a small family. The food one gets is crispy, oily, and is of reasonable price but yet it attracts every student. Not even boys, girls do come here and sit. Avidha Mitra, a student from Advertisement and Public Relation, says, “The place is not about boys or girls. The place is about the environment. Here it is open and the breeze is so cool that we can’t stop ourselves from coming here. We enjoy sitting here with friends during evening”. This is a place, which is ordinary for any other person. But for a student, it is a place more than a tea stall. It is a place where they meet. It is a place where they laugh. It is a place where they make plans. It is a place where they complete their assignments. It is a place where two hearts meet. It is a life for them. It is a part of life for them which is opened from 7 am till 9.30 pm, adding a new memory in their mind with every new day and passing of time. This place will be here for days to come, but they will leave with such sweet memory in their future. One day, they will get nostalgia sitting in an air conditioned room having a cup of filter coffee and remembering the unhygienic tea in a small glass in an open area.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010


There is an old saying, “In the whole world there is nothing which is free. One pays for each and everything”. Long thing short, “There is no free lunch”. Some earn it, some steal it and there are some who grab. But among them, there are few who allow people to take their lunch. These, last type, are not saint. They would have been in ancient, but as per current situation, they are STUPID.
These people are really stupid that they allow other to take away their lunch and they sit and watch them doing this and keep saying, ‘Let him do. He is hungry and needy. One should help the needy’. They keep thinking that Mighty Lord is watching them and one day will give them reward. All their good deeds will be paid one day. Spending their whole life thinking this, at the end they are left with humiliation, feel of getting used by the people and the group increases each and every minute, hour, day, week, month and year. According to the Hindu Mythology, this era in which we are living is named as ‘KALYUG’. In other words, the humanity is lacking in this era. People around us are no less than a structure of a bones and flesh which can even cheat his brother if needed to climb the stair of success. They won’t think about it once before taking such a bold step.
The meaning of trust, humanity is missing like clouds from sky during summer in desert. No sign of evidence to a long distance. Finding humanity is like finding salt in water. In these worlds who are left behind are those who are human. Who are real human. But then, who needs human today. We need who are smart. Who thinks from mind not someone who takes decision from heart, occasionally. Those who can think from mind and can play the mind games are surely welcome in this world, else you are welcomed as a toy. A toy with whom these smart can play and improve themselves. After all, they need time for refreshments. We, those who are good by heart, are their refreshments. We come in their life as a toy with whom they can play, use according to them, make us fool emotionally, and then can throw away like a doll thrown away by a 16 years girl, for whom it holds no place in her life as the age with dolls are gone. We become a showpiece for dustbin. Again alone, quite thinking were we went wrong. We blame ourselves for whatever happened.
We blame our fate. We always find our self in place of culprit and think that we won’t let this happen again and next time we will do better in holding a relationship. We take all faults on our self but forget that it’s really we who are responsible for whatever happened. We allow others to use us as they want. The big fault is that, we are good. We have to forget our goodness which is of no use and make us a puppet. We are no puppet. We are also human made up of bones, flesh, mind and most importantly, which they lack, heart. We got heart and it really pains when someone breaks that trust. It does and the pain is unbearable which cannot be healed by any medication. It stays with us. But now, it’s time that this baggage needs a disposable. Throw this garbage and along with it throw away all emotions that make you weak. This time you need to be powerful and need to take command on your hand. This all emotional crap needs to be dumped and make yourself a strong to win this world. Believe and trust yourself. Let the devil within you come out to prevent the goodness in you. Else it will be affected every time and then it will lose the glow. Let the demon come in front and guard the innocent boy. Do not forget, “There is no free lunch. And you are not a lunch. Never be a lunch but if someone tries to make you a lunch, you eat him”.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010


What’s hobby? Why it’s so important? What is has to do with person? Why it’s frequently asked? These all are few questions which come in my mind as I hear the word ‘HOBBY’.
According to the Oxford Dictionary meaning, it means, ‘leisure time activity’. But for me, it has something deep meaning. For me it’s not only the activity which one does on leisure time, but it’s something which can be one’s profession. People find ‘hobby’ is just an activity which can be done only in free time to get rid of the boredom. It’s more important than what it actually seems. Whenever we fill our C.V., we come to a column ‘Hobby’. If it got a space in our C.V. then definitely it has some importance which we can’t ignore.
But then why does it have been so important? Someone told me, ‘A person’s character can be easily known by one’s hobby’. This might be the one reason that this minute thing has got importance in our C.V., which is the first entrance in any organization. One have hobby depending upon his character. Like a creative person would have a hobby which has creativity in it as painting, dancing and other such thing. And surprisingly at the same time there are few who don’t have any hobby. On being ask they say, ‘Hobby? I don’t have any hobby’. Which implies that they are just machine who believes in doing the monotonous work appointed to them. Tell me which organization, in today’s competition world would like to have a machine when they already have many machine to do make their job easy. They need someone who can fight this competitive world and will win.
But hobby is not only important in corporate world, it also shapes a person. It’s a stress buster. It, on other sense, means, what one does to keep the energy level, enthusiasm alive within him. Hobby brings life to a person. Some dance when they fell sad so that they can bring out all negative energy out through their hobby. Some like to listen music when they fell low. Some read novels to get their energy level back. There are many who would go for trekking on holiday so that they can return to their work place ,next day, with full of energy and enthusiasm. Physiologists suggest having a hobby.
But in today’s world, we do everything but ignore what’s important, ‘Hobby’. I’ve heard people saying, ‘I like to paint but don’t have time’. They complaint that due to their tight schedule, they don’t have much time to follow their hobby. Working for the whole week, they need full rest on their off days. They hang out with friends, go for drink, sleep, watch stupid programmes on television but don’t take out an hour for what they like. ‘I’ve loads of work and don’t get time for the hobby’. This case is not only with the professionals and grownups, even children are following this. They would love to watch ‘Emotional Attyachar’, ‘WWE’ and other to name a few in place of their hobby. Then they complaint about the pressure of study and growing competition. Parents are pretty ok with it. For them the children should stand in merit list even if he would sacrifice his/her hobby. Getting rich is important than success. This is the new funda of the modern society.
If one would ask me, what I personally fell about ‘Hobby’, I would say, “I’m a simple person like any other having two eyes to see, two ears to hear, one mouth to speak, one nose to smell and other parts of the body to do different work but one thing which distinct and separate me from the crowd is my Hobby. There are many who have the similar hobby, but then this is magic of ‘Hobby’ that it distinct you even being in a group of person. There might be no one who could think like me. My interpretation of certain thing and presenting it in writing or painting or photography can’t be done by other person who has the same hobby. Every mind works on its own, differently. The work of mind is presented by your hobby. Doesn’t matter if your hobby is cooking, stitching, watching movies, traveling, or any sort which re energize you, re-built your enthusiasm, works as stress buster and makes you fell fresh, it distinct you from other. It’s a color of your life which once gone makes your life black and white. It totally depends upon you that in this modern world when there are more colors available, you want your life to be colorless. So what’s your HOBBY?”


When I met my friend the other evening, we decided to have something light. I was unable to decide the good place. Then my friend suggested me a place and we decided to go there. Soon we landed up in Pradhikaran. I was standing in front of a cafe which was in a very small place. From outside it looked like any other cafe but as I entered, I was impressed by the ambience. With light colour wall and great lightning, the small place was looking very nice.
There was a small balcony and we decided to seat there. As we both wanted to have something light, we decided to have a Veg Grilled Sandwich and Finger Chips along with drink named Mango Slush and Blue Wave from a very nice Veg and Non-veg menu available. As I looked around after giving the order, I found a television playing IPL Matches, a very colour full light on one corner, a properly cubed and managed sitting arrangement, the half open kitchen and the colourful walls which catches your eyes. Soon after our order, we were served with our drinks. I ordered for Mango Sush. As I took the first sip, I felt the exact taste of Mango. The sweetness and the whole composition of ingredient were perfect. My friend was drinking the Blue Wave. Our drink was good. As we were drinking, one of the person came and asks, “Sir, if you find it sweeter then we would like to change it for you”. The way they treated it was appreciable.
Then as we again resumed our chat, we were served with a bowl of finger chips. As I took the first one, it was good. The crisp, less oil, properly baked. One feels the real taste. As we were in the middle of finishing the chips, there came the Veg grilled sandwich. They served it with few potato chips in a plate. I was unable to control myself after seeing it. As I took the first bite of it, I felt the cabbage, cucumber, tomato, and other such vegetables getting mix in my mouth. The taste made me to finish the whole sandwich in one take. The quantity and the quality of the food served along with the service they were offering forced me to call upon the owner and appreciate him.
The owner was just 26 years old young guy, Bhushan Bhangale, who has opened this cafe just 7 month back. He completed his Hotel Management course and then done his Post Graduation from London. Coming from a family where his father is into construction, it was not an easy thing to do. He got full support of his family and was successful in opening a cafe. When asked why did not he worked in a good Hotel, he says, “Working in a good hotel won’t pay one much then having a good cafe”. He wanted to get back to London again for working but then faced some VISA problem and stayed back in India. He wasn’t shattered by this sudden break of his dream. He thought of using his skill and opening a good cafe which will provide hygiene food and drink along with a good service. “I wanted to start with different kind of drinks then started off with some snacks too”, he says smiling. With its location neat to the Sambhaji Chowk, where there are more restaurants, it’s one which promises you to give nice foods with reasonable price.
With an option of joining his father’s business, he chooses of developing his skill and serving customer with delicious snacks. He takes care of hygiene. He makes sure that he should not mix up Veg and Non-Veg utensils and if he uses it, he washes it after every use. He manages his cafe only with one staff and himself. He attends every customer personally and takes their feedback. One, if really want to have a good food along with good service and reasonable price with added quality, should never miss out a good evening at a small cafe with good ambience and nice music at the background in ‘Liquid Bistro The Cafe’ near Sambhaji Chowk at Pradhikaran. I would suggest visiting at least one and experiencing it.

Monday, April 12, 2010


Why in life we make mistake? Why we commit certain mistake that change life, forever? I sometimes, personally, feel that this all mistakes we commit or do unknowingly the fact that it can affect our life, very badly, is all planned. But then the second thought which comes to my mind is that, if it’s planned then why call it as mistake?
Like any other thing, as they say, mistakes can be of two types. First, which is committed on a daily basis and that mistakes are usual. Second, which are committed occasionally. In case one, our life is hardly affected and we can escape by simply saying ‘SORRY’. Whereas in second case, it’s hard to escape. It’s get more complicated as we try to solve it. The reason is yet unknown. May be the Time, the great HEALER; want to heal the wounds in hearts. But this, would say, turns one’s life totally upside down. One just can’t escape this mistake. Try hard, but believe me, you can’t. It’s a surprise by GOD in our life. It’s something is planned for everyone’s life.
Something similar was planned for me too. And as I said, it’s a surprise, so I was never aware that a hurricane is about to enter my life and would change it. It’s that, I recognized after it went. At that point, when I sat to analyze the whole disasters situation, I discovered that it would have been saved only if I would have given a second thought to my action which gave birth to it. Then I felt, how stupid I’m? I wish, and I mean it, would have known about the outcome if it. But if, I would have known the outcome, it wouldn’t have been a mistake. Now, I think sitting within a four wall and under a roof, how great this whole thing is. I laugh at my mistake and at the same time cry. That’s what I’m doing now. Laughing ‘cause, I’ve not checked my action. And crying, as I’m badly hurt from within.
I committed my mistake ‘cause I was coward. I wasn’t sure of my actions. Afraid of committing a mistake. And want to avoid the worst situation. And now, here I’m sitting after committing a BIG MISTAKE. How funny, isn’t it? The thing I was trying to escape unknowingly moved towards it. We do this. Trust me; we do this kind of act. This all ruined stuff was the outcome of my insecurity. I was insecure of my feelings. I was insecure of my strength. I was insecure about being me. I simply thought that lets take the easy way to face this. And yeah, the road was easy as it took me to the mistake easily without knowing that I’m moving towards it. The journey was great. Easy and fast.
But you all know, I learnt something from it. I gained it after losing some. It’s all about ‘Give and Take’ after all. What I learnt is, trust you. Trust what you are doing. I came to know the proper usage of Mind and Heart. Heart is for feeling and Mind is for thinking. Love someone from Heart but think about the actions to express it, from Mind. This is what will lead you to the proper destination. Never, I repeat, never mix this two. If you do, then GOD GIVES YOU POWER TO FACE DISASTER. No matter how much I can try to explain you, one will learn from its own. So be prepared to face at least one hurricane in your life, which will not only turn your whole life upside down but will give you the worthy lesson of life, FREE.